God, college is torturous… what happened to the days when things were easier? When you could sit an exam with no preparation whatsoever and pass without a care in a world? Lately I haven’t been feeling like myself, I’m breaching new grounds in some areas but in others I’m totally stuck.
Revision is one of those ‘stuck’ periods; I can’t study to save my life. I literally get migraines daily now due to the stress, not only that but impending exams and over thinking seems to be drying up my creativity and my enthusiasm for anything at all. Most days I smile only to change it up a little, no-one wants to be around someone with a constant ‘can’t be fucked face.’ I only have one re-sit from last year to do which in the grand scheme of things isn’t so bad, but with all exams now crammed into the last month before summer holidays I wonder how much good the revision I do now will help. Don’t get me wrong I know if I revise all the time now it will be a lot easier when doing last minute revision but my long term memory is non-existent!! I only remember things that are connected to something random, or good memories and situations I was emotional intertwined with, which sucks because revision never got emotional and it sure as hell was never ‘good’ or fun.
Most lessons information enters one ear and leaves out of the other, the only subject I have any sort of hope for is English Literature because my teachers are literally the best motivators and ensure that every lesson is fun and interactive. Mathematics on the other hand is fine until I’m completely a maths paper, information gathered from lessons completely disappears and I am left wondering what the fuck the question is even asking me to do. Biology is no better either, with such specific mark schemes it is a wonder that anyone passes.
You know those migraines I mentioned previously, well I am getting one right now, a severe one… I did have more to say maybe I’ll do a ‘stuck continued’ post… But for now at 6.15 I am going to go to bed, recoup and maybe sleep off this hangover feeling I have without having had a single drop of alcohol.
Damn I’m broken, my body has given up on me, everywhere aches…Getting way too old before my time!
2 comments:
Some rest will do you the world of good!
looking out for stuck part 2.. ( or better yet..unstuck.)
Your hard work will pay off. I hope things become clearer..and begin to fall into place minus the migraines!
Just gave the me the title to my next post ;) seems you were right!!
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