Puzzled

Recently I spent the day with one of my closest friends and although 7 years have passed since we first met we are still as close as we ever were; maybe even closer. Even though so many years have been spent where we lived in different counties and for 2 years on completely different continents. No matter all that lost time and all the changes we both have been through in our lives we still had the ability to talk and confide in each as though we'd never spent a moment apart.

Really it's amazing how time and distance can mess so many things up while at the same time revealing the underlying things you used to ignore; for example your friendship was more likely to blow up than TNT. If that's the case then your so called 'friendship' was volatile at best, are you even sure it existed or was it the occasional good times that had you fooled for so long? Sometimes friends that said 'forever' actually meant 'until I get bored of trying to keep up the pretense.' Sometimes moving away from home filters out fake relationships and highlights the real ones, I guess for a lot of my friends heading off to University this year, that will allow you the distance to be able to distinguish between the real and the fake.

What  puzzle's me is... why don't we notice the deceptions of every day lives? Why does it take distance and harsh realities before the wall in front of your subconscious is unblocked, surely the experience would be less painful if our naivety wasn't so strong to begin with. 

Friends like any other relationship need to be pure, they understand boundaries and accept them as they are; they say things other people are afraid to or are too polite to. Like what if she isn't a virgin it's not like he'll ever give a fuck. And maybe she drops her T's and he sags his pants doesn't mean that somehow that makes them less smart than you.

Something else that throws me is how people nowadays put so much expectations on the little things that the big things become impossible. As people we are incomplete jigsaws; every moment in our life comes together to make the complete image of our whole selves; maybe there are jagged pieces and some pieces that you wished were never there but at the end of the day all the pieces are you and made you the person you are right this second. 

Puzzles makes sense especially in a time where world peace seems like an impossible mission, where children are starving, taxes are being raised and the rich profit from the misfortune of the poor. I'm at a point in my life where I greet every fact with a question, I'm tired of just accepting, so I am thinking that maybe the more questions I ask the clearer everything will become?

xxx