Within (poem)

She’s triple dotting her life, pulling out all the stops

Putting on all the breaks, gonna give you all she’s got

No more timid lies, no more fucked up jokes

She’s gonna fill you up with honesty and she’s hoping that you choke…

You see she’s been trying to find the words, them right words to say

Trying to find the song, so she can dance the pain away

Been trying to find the needle lost in some old haystack

Trying to find the replay button, to play the same aged track…

She still doesn’t have the words, and she’s mistaking it all for more;

Now it’s only her breaking down; there’s still blood on the floor

They tell her she’s a heartbreaker; but you’re in the way of success

They tell her that she’s heartless so she just uses her heart-less

If you look close and in detail you start to see the anger in her gaze

The sense of betrayal and pain setting her eyes alight, setting them ablaze

She feels that sense of drifting, that loneliness, that doubt deep inside

She feels the mask fall off, you've seen the 'her' behind the disguise

Alas it was all too much to bear, the hope she held once is dead

She took a knife in hand and with her finally strength she cut and bled

Now all they see is death, the chalky colour of her skin

Yet no-one saw the girl, that girl who died within